i'm so hungry. i think..

P/S: Geog and chem lessons were fun! =D

To R.I. Shame, shame.....

i mean, you LOST over LOYANG SEC for god's sake!

the first speaker for RI wasn't good... he didn't even rebutt the loyang girl... oh speaking of that shanaz girl, wow i'm SO impressed by her, man...! she speak sooo damn well, i LOVE her accent and voice.. it's so sweet... and she was a damn good speaker for the loyang team..

but ah, i dun understand why the last speaker for loyang had way more points than RI's speaker.. if you were listening closely, she was half talking gibberish! she went out of point many times. on the other hand i love the facts that RI had presented. at least they live up to what they're called.. FACTS. the loyang girls even had some of the soccer facts wrong.. -.-'

but, shame, shame, RI.....

i was reading all my old posts, and i came across one which is my answer to a qn asked thru my qn box. i think i want to repost it again as i think it'll be useful to those who have not read it b4, but has the same problem:

Q: What do you do when this person betrays you, and that because you're so forgiving and that you love the person as a friend, you always try to be friends with the person again? Yet scared cos the person might betray you again?

A: I would stop and think, is this person i call my friend really my friend? What IS friend? A friend does not betray you. But sometimes, when you quarrel or giving silent treatments to your friend, it's only because of a misunderstanding. A misunderstanding which you both are sometimes too embarrassed to confront each other about. The tension during a quarrel usually worsens. So we do need to confront your peers, talk things out, and get the facts straight-so you can remain friends and have a stronger trust in each other.

Don't try too hard to get her back. It can sometimes be annoying and alas, you feel more hurt. Instead, try to mix with other friends (make new friends or join a clique, that is) act as if nothing happened between you and your friend. Even though you know there's tension between you and your friend, just say hi or at least smile to her whenever you see her around (in the corridors or something), but try not to do that in the classroom. Do not bother if she returns you a glare or an eye-rolling. Just keep being friendly to her. (But pls, don't act desperate. You are being friendly to her cuz you are treating her like a classmate.) Then, soon, that friend of yours will ask herself, why the heck did i start quarrelling with you? And since it seemed that the quarrel did not have any effect on you, that friend of yours will realise that the quarrel is such a waste of time, and she'll start talking to you again.

But don't just jump into being her best friend again. Take things slow. :)

cry. i'm having a fever... maybe i was soo depressed that i fell sick.

cry.

i'm having a headache.

just came back from singapore discovery centre... with my new class... gosh... i have never not looked forward to a class outing before sey.... yesterday night i was so dreading for that trip.. sigh..

on the bus, i sat alone... =( being in this class, i can't be myself.. the real me is one who loves to joke around with friends and smile everytime i'm around them.. but, because this class has their own cliques, it's hard to make friends and be easy around them. i miss 2/6 people so much!!!! i loved all the people in that class... felt like family..... ="(((

then, when we were there, whenever i see my friends, i would go hang with them, and realise how much i treasure and love all my friends....

if not with my friends, i would walk alone while looking at the exhibits... so actually i paid attention to everything there was to be learnt... so it was very interesting... we watched Wired to Win in the iWerks theatre.. that documentary is sooooooooo nice.. it's such a great motivational documentary... i nearly cried, as it made me think about life and the future.. :) i'm a sensitive person. that's all...

anw, alia was in no better position than me... like me, she's miserable in her class, she has no one to talk to, and she misses me. hahah! =D

anw, alia gave me this keychain she bought from LA... it's so nice! i shall treasure it. =)

oh my god, i bet yesterday was the worst day of my life! as now i'm sec3, we're all mixed up in different classes.. in my class, there's only me and denise who were from 2/6.. so i practically do not know the rest, or i hardly ever speak to them for the last two years.... denise's has her dance friends, the rest has their own cliques, like so many cliques ah! and because of this, i dun think it bothers them if they dun make new friends.. so i'm like loner ah..!

i was sooo miserable.. during assembly and flag raising and all (which was held in the hall), i went to 3/3 row la, but since i dunno anyone i wen riiight to the back (in my school, the rows are horizontal, not vertical) and was quite squashed and i felt like the odd one... i kept thinking and worrying about it, i had a headache... and we went to the hall a coupla times, so i went to sit with alia at her 3/8 class row (she, too felt so out from her class)... but then, during the last period, when we went to the hall again, i had to sit in my own row, so i'm like, sitting alone and i felt lke as if there're too many ppl around me making me feel uneasy... then mdm lenny was talking abt school rules and all (she was reminding us of them '-.-), then she suddenly told us to 'turn to your partner' and 'check if she broke any rules'! i mean, i'm alone! in my heart i was like swearing and going 'this woman is making my life miserable'.

sigh... i dunno why this is happening. it's worst than when you're in sec1... no cliques have been formed yet in sec1.............. sigh....

my parents went to batam with a friend and his wife yesterday, so my siblings and i are left alone at home. =D so we decided to go out and watch a movie with two of our cousins yesterday. but sadly, my eldest sis couldn't come with us as she had to go to school..

so btw, it was just me, kak nana, lin, humairah and her sis kauthar. humairah got a free GV movie ticket, which is why we decided to catch a movie at tampines mall... we watched Deja Vu, which is sooo bloody nice. it's that type of complicating movies, which i like, like The Lakehouse..

so yea.. after that, we went to century square to eat at Food Culture, which i din know exists... that's when it started to rain sooo heavily...

after that, we decided to go library.. as it was raining, we had to run in the rain whenever there isn't a shelter over our heads, and duh, we were drenched.. haha here's almost all the pics we took.

me and humairah

i suddenly feel like blogging abt my top five favourite food in the world.

1. Sup tulang of my grandmother's recipe which is being passed down the generations.
2. My mom's fried macaroni.
3. Burger King's double rendang burger
4. My mom's spagetti.
5. Macdonald's double cheeseburger.


=D

haha. i found out about something incredibly incredible. heee but i'm not gonna publish it. xP

:DDDDDDDDDDD

yesterday, i went to the airport to see my friends off to japan, which is for something like an educational thing for band (my cca). then after talking talking, taking pictures, and seeing them check in the luggage, i sunddenly felt this pang in my chest. i think it was jealousy and regret. i could have gone too, if it wasn't for the food problem. i mean, it's SOOO hard to find halal food in japan! what's more, in the program catalogue, it's written that the places where they're gonna eat include the hotel and a chinese restaurant..! like, isn't that obvious it's not gonna be halal?? wat? starve for 7 days, or eat instant stuff brought from singapore for the whole trip??

but anw, back to the feelings of jealousy and regret. as i watched them all gathered at the airport pulling along their luggages, chatting atimatedly with friends, while wearing the windbreaker specially made for that japan tour (which sadly, i dun get), i imagined them having fun in japan. i mean they're oso going to tokyo disneyland and disneysea, and also taking a bullet train for the experience! seriously, if they had assured me that there will be halal food, i would definitely go. right now, i'm just constantly looking at the clock and asking myself, "i wonder what they're doing now". i miss them! mostly, i miss azura! i won't get to text message her for 7 days!! we were planning on going escape theme park together... boo hoo.. and i miss alia too! she's away in los angelas and and i can't text msg her too!

cry.

i watched rich girls on mtv.. and i think alexandria hilfiger is so humble. she's not a bitch like most rich girls are, and she has such a cool dad!

i wonder what's wrong with my blog. the background at my links are all white.. O.o

yesterday was the First National Creative Music Competiton at University Cultural Centre Theatre at NUS.. it was fun ah. when we first got there, we saw ping yi military band, or was it springfield? cuz both have the same uniform since both bands combined.. so ya....

then we went into the theatre to rehearse. there was cedar band and compassvale band sitting in there laa... scared of screwing up in front of them..

then it was cedar band's turn to rehearse, and they were okok la.. they played retro songs and their gimmicks and dances were rily cute, but rily not coordinated, and their playing was oso not that nice lol.

yep... so blahdeeda deedaa...

so at last, tkgssb din win the $1000 first prize for the creative band.. but we won the musical award and $200..and that means our sound was goood =DDDDD.. and our dances were, er, not soo good.. lol. cedar won appreciation of showing potential and $150, i think.

the winner of the $1000 prize money and the creative band award was Compassvale sec sch military band.. which was weird. i dun think there were rily good... the band played while a lot of others (who i dun think are part of the band) acted out in front. it looked quite weird la.. it was about this two kingdoms (let's called them A and B) fighting a war, then the princess of kingdom A and the prince (or was it knight?) of kingdom B fell in love with each other, when they're not suppose to, duh. then a figter of kingdom A wanted to kill that prince (or knight), but accidentally killed the princess. then the prince (or knight) killed himself upon seeing his girl dead.. (so it's like tragic love story la) then the kings of both kingdoms decided to make peace.. blaaaaahblah. the ppl acting as the fighters were like wearing short skirts (Yes! even the guys! too bad i couldn't take a picture since my cam phone makes a sound, which cant be turned off) and cardboard armours and helmets with long spears. it was all too weird la. somemore they fought sooo lembek (soft in malay)!

then another one was by yio chu kang band. they had a small number of people playing the instruments and the rest acted. the skit was DANG DAMN FUNNY LAAARRR!! especially the 'main character' who acted as the prince. he's such a great actor. the skit was abt this prince who was still single and at last his mom and dad (the king and queen, duh) picked a number of girls. first was this rily quiet girl who doesn't say anything (lol), so she was rejected, then this very rough girl, very macho, who scares even the king (loll) then this girl who keeps swaying to and fro (she actaully escaped from a mental hospital and had no idea how she got to the 'palace' (lolll). and obviously all three of them- rejected!
then left this one girl who is perfect and all, so they decided tt she's ok. but when the ball came, and she danced with the prince, she lifted her arm, and evrything stank. yep, B.O. so the prince ends up marrying the macho girl. lollll.

so yup. but my favourite FAVOURITE performance was by ping yi sec. they won the best showmanship, and i can see why. they played sooo well and put up a greeeeeeeeeeeaaat show ah! somemore got a lot of cute guys. hahah! yep. cant forget their performance.

chiaos

omg.

today's band half-sucked.

ms sia practically made us play for so long... we all were damn exhausted with muscles straining..
especially while practising for Chattanooga Choo Choo, with gimmicks and stuff for this saturday's Creative Competition thing. i don't even know where it's gonna be.

BUT tmr we still have to go to sch to clean out band cupboards, clean and sweep (maybe mop) band rooms and the music rooms, and clean instruments... whaarrgh! i'm like sooo tired. THEN on friday got band practice, THEN saturday-competition. grrrrr.....

after this, i'm gonna watch Project Runway, and OFF TO SLEEP.

ooh i love the word sleep.


my neck hurts. ='(((((

haha ok here are photos of me with curly hair. lol.

went to vivo for the first time yesterday... and it was fun!! many of my friends told me there wasn't much to do there, the shops are damn expensive, blah deeedaaaa.. but not true! there are still shops like bossini, giordano, hang ten, op......then there's restaurants like banquet, burger king...

anw, my family and i went to eat at Banquet first, where i ate japanese beef udon, and then, after that, we went major shopping..! in total, we were carrying EIGHT plastic bags in all, and we enjoyed it...!

the most expensive item we bought is this print chiffon dress at over $125 from a boutique called Principles.. and it fits my mom, my two elder sisters, and me! wanna know why? it's cuz it takes to the shape of the body of the person wearing the dress.. no wonder it's expensive. but it's rily nice, so what else?

we oso bought X-Men 2 and Bring It On: All Or Nothing which are rily nice...

speaking of the movie Bring It On: All Or Nothing, i watched it today and i realised Gus Carr, who's playing Jesse, is SOO HOT!!!

HE'S GOT ABS!!!!

i feel faint...


and i found out that solange knowles-smith is beyonce knowles sister.. solange has the smith cuz she's married Daniel Smith with a son, Daniel Jr.. she married when she's 17! cool...

i think solange is prettier than beyonce...

you know, i'm a huge huge fan of the TV show CHARMED, and so are my sisters. and we just watched the final episode EVER.

it's like sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice!!!!! phoebe and paige kinda died, then piper went back to the past and all to fix everything, blahh blah. there's alot of going to the past/future stuff. kinda cool. then of course everything turned out right.. but i especially love the part when billy realises that she was being used and all by the triads, and realises that her sister, christie was evil. then when the charmed ones, and billy, stopped christie in time, christie got soo mad, she produced this huge fireball straight towards billy (her own sister!) but billy sort of used her powers to 'shove' it back towards christie, which vanguished christie. so in short, billy vanguished her sister. so cool! but of coz, when billy realised what she has done, she like broke down and cried.

so the happy ending is that phoebe married Cupe, and has 3 lil girls, paige has a boy and a pair of girl twins whom she had with henry (her husband, duh) and piper with her two sons, wyatt and chris. speaking of wyatt, omigod his adult self (played by wes ramsey) is SOOO hot..!

so yup. er, half of you reading this post might not understand half what i'm saying, but nvm. i just feel the need to type it all down. =D

just got the news from my mom (who went with my lil sis to her school) that my lil sis got 246 for her PSLE. CONGRATULATIONS LIN! MUACKS!

i just discovered something. WAS is the opposite of SAW.

cool!

i curled my hair last night! it looked sooo nice! i like curly hair! but it only lasted a few hours. i've got some pictures. will upload soon. =D

today's a very special day for my family. it's my eldest sis's birthday, the day my lil sis gets her PSLE results, and the the day my dad gets his results from NUS, whether he got the job for lecturer there.

so can't wait. hope everyone will be happy.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, MY CUTEY FUN-Y LOVABLE SISTER, KAK ISYAH FISHY FISHY!

yay like my present or not?!

hahah. we're probably going Ramen Ten for dinner to celebrate, so there might be pictures, which i will upload to my blog. =D

oooh just watched the movie trailer for harry potter and the order of phoenix. it's coming out on 17 july!!! yay!! can't wait.

these holidays, i've been borrowing quite alot from the library, and right now, i'm reading two of the books i borrowed, at the same time. they're BLINK BY MALCOLM GLADWELL, and READING PEOPLE BY JO-ELLAN DIMITRIUS AND MARK MAZZARELLA.

anw, those two books i mentioned are psychology books. =D

but you know what? i REALLY REALLY recommend you to read BLINK. it's soooooo damn nice and gripping! that book makes you think, and it can teach you skills too, like how to know whether newlyweds would still be happily married 15 years later, just by listening to a 3-minute (or even less) of their conversation of any random topic. it's so cool.

next, reading people. this book is about reading human expressions, and more. well, tyhe writer, jo-ellan is a judge of law, who, according to her, does alot of reading the behavior and expressions of defendants of the court. this book also helps you to improve your interactions with people. so it's really cool and helpful for the rest of your life.

so yup. try to get your hands on those books, especially BLINK.
=D

Amirah- my-best-friend-who-supports-manu-because-of-ronaldo i'm so going to miss you and oh my god i'm missing you already.
-Alia Amanina, my best friend.

this is so because next year, we will be four classes apart. D':

saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd....

so sad. =(

oooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhh.
I'M IN CLASS 3/3 FOR NEXT YEAR.

which means, i'll be taking the following subjects-
-english
-hml
-maths
-a maths
-pure chem
-pure bio
-elec lit
-core geog

yay.
can't wait for literature lessons. for next year, my lit book will be To Kill A Mockingbird. yay!

i bought The Lakehouse, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire vcds yesterday. watched the lakehouse today. it's so damn nice! quite complicating, which makes it interesting. definitely one of my favourite movies now.

haha cute.

a friendster survey i did at 4.16pm

qns : What is your name?
ans : Nur Amirah

qns : What were you doing 25 minutes ago?
ans : reading ashley's blog

qns : Who is your celebrity crush?
ans : Orlando Bloom

qns : Do you cry most of the time you haveproblems?
ans : sometimes

qns : Did you have a fight with someone today?
ans : my lil sis, cuz she din pick up her phone.

qns : What are your favorite subjects?
ans : lit and geog

qns : Who cheers you up the most in your life?
ans : sisters come first, close friends are next.

qns : Do u like to talk?
ans : sometimes i'd just prefer to keep quiet.

qns : last conversation.
ans : my 2nd sis, asking her why My Super Sweet Sixteen is still not on mtv yet.

qns : Do you like to laugh?
ans : yeah, but sometimes i just dun have the mood to.

qns : Last testi from? What's the testi about?
ans: alia, which is, 'amirah loves me'

qns : Last text message from? What's about?
ans : singtel, telling me that someone at home called on my switched off phone six times.

qns : Last thing you ate?
ans : some corn snack.

qns : Do you have an MP3? What's the top 3 songs played?
ans : catch your wave, come what may, the pirates of the carribean tune, or soundtrack,whichever you prefer to call it.

qns : Do you think people who like to study a lot are nerds?
ans : no. i actually look up to them. i wanna be like them, the studying-alot- part, that is.

qns : What's your opinion about long distance relationship?
ans : i think it rarely happens, but i want it to happen to me, maybe.

qns : About love at the first sight?
ans : it's called obsession. it's ok to be obssessed, but not too much till you go crazy.

qns : Did you ever like someone but he/she didntlike you?
ans : i like(d) someone, but i dunno if he doesn'tlike me, but i'm guessing not.

qns : Did you ever like sumone?
ans : yeaaaa.................

qns : Have you ever taken a relationship with someone u didn't love?
ans : single all my life.

qns : Have you ever hurt sumone who u love so much?
ans : i'm not sure, er, i love my sister, so it most probably happened, the hurting a loved one thing...

qns : Do you like going to school?
ans : yeah, sometimes.

qns : Do you have something you must do right now?
ans : erm not really.. maybe i should be eating my lunch now.

went out 'visiting' for hari raya with my primary school friends (fadiana, kamariya, genevieve and fyawilda), and it sucked. i mean, it had been two years since the last time we met, and we've all changed.. 80% of the girls in my primary sch malay class went to St Joseph's Convent, and i dunno what's been going on in their lives, and yesterday, they did not seem to be interested in filling me in. and i felt awkward cuz i'm in different school with way different academic standards, and being around them (although genevieve's like, more cleverer than me), i felt as if i need to watch my words and my actions, if not they wud be like, "and she goes to tkgs..?" well, in fya's hse, i was being (truthfully) blur abt something, then they kinda explained (in a quite annoyed voice) and said "pakailah otak tu" which means "use your brain la". now do you get what mean abt not being myself around them?my frens know that i'm a naturally blur person sometimes... that's just me. fine, i might be over reacting, but i wanna get it off my chest.

it's like i dunno them anymore. they've turned into these completely different person! i was dreading the whole thing straight from the first house we went. i was sooooooo desperately wishing i was back home, chatting and joking with my family...

when we went to my house, it was soooo awkward... everyone was quite, not knowing what to say to each other, then my mom came down and started chatting to them... i must admit i was quite embarrassed with some questions my mom asked them..

and then when they all went home, i tell you i felt soo relieved.. and i kinda appreciate my secondary school friends and my family more than before. not sure why. maybe i'm relieved that at least i dun lead an awkward life with ALL my friends and relatives....

i think guys who wear light-coloured (white or cream-coloured, etc) samping with baju kurung tucked out looks cute. =)

just got back my higher malay paper... and yeaa... i passed that endofyear paper... got a B4.. but it's not the overall la...

feeling quite leftout, but am hangin' with diyana and sakina... so everything's quite fine, i guess...
lol.. i'm sure you have no idea what i'm talking about... but i don't intend to enlighten you... lol i'm crapping. chiaos.

we baked cookies just now!!! =D my mom, my younger sis and i, baked cookies... my two elder sisters were of no use.. my eldest sis (kak isyah) was still sleeping at 2pm you know! then the other one, play computer and sprawled on her bed, reading Nora Roberts... lol..

so anyway, we baked almond cookies... in the recipe it stated to put 550g of corn flour, and 25g of wheat flour... like doesn't make sense right? then my mom realise it's suppose to be the other wa round.. so frustrating. that book has soooooo much errors.

but the cookies tasted quite nice..

then during break fast (buka puasa xP), we ordered pizza! we ordered from Rite Pizza (it's 2 for 1 and i think it's quite new..). then when my elder sis was ordering the pizzas, me and my adik were like fighting to choose the toppings... the person (who took our order laughed..) lol.

lol... tmr checking of papers... nervous!

hey go to this site, and watch he video. it's damn funny....!

link-> http://youtube.com/watch?v=VWmLAui6OOw

i had just watched lindsay lohan's confessions of a broken heart music video on youtube. omg it's so sad!! i cried you know, i swear. i bet lindsay was REALLY sad and grieving while she was doing the video. do you know that she directed it? the thing abt her father and all, it's true. i mean, her dad reeeally left her family and got into so much trouble and jailed...

i pity lindsay...

yay!!!! exams are OVER!!!!

i just had chinese(special programme) paper just now, and it was damn difficult. most of it i tikam-tikam onli XP... but i dun rily care.. i wanna quit csp...

then after school, i went to tampines with diyana, nadiah and maryam... went to help nadiah look for ingredients for her butter rolls, she's making for hari raya, at NTUC..and also, i maryam and i bought diyana a belated birthday present =)..

then i meet up with kak isyah while my friends went home... so fun shopping with my sister, who is loaded and just got her salary... she bought me something, but i'm not gonna say... she also bought quite a lot of stuff for herself...

ok 'nuff said.

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYANA, MY DEAR SENIOR!!!! =D

i received this on june 29...hahah soorryy for the damn late reply! =D

Q: How would you feel, if you're trying to forget someone, but that someone is now getting involve with people in your life?

A: i think i won't be bothered at first, but it seem quite obvious that that someone is soo desperate. hmmm, then, i would tell that person off. saying something like, "what's wrong with you? i don't like you, and you know it, so you should me hurt AND trying to forget me too! what's this, trying to get to know the people in my life? i don't want you in my life anymore, and so do those people in my life!" =D

i took The Just Between Friends Test on Tickle Tests, and here's the result...

Amirah92, you should pick your Supportive Sidekick
You know who we're talking about — the champion consoler, the person you can always count on, the person who knows how to clean up even after the biggest emotional superspill of your life. This friend gives you a one-on-one rush like no other. This confidante for all seasons can probably even read your mind just a little. Or don't you remember the last time they finished a sentence for you?

Lucky for you, your supportive sidekick can probably guess what your next dreams will be before you even do. It must be nice to know you have a tireless supporter and coach in your midst, someone you can tell anything to who always has your best interests in mind and a smile to cheer you up. How sweet!

cool, huh?

ooooh... guess what? diyana won tickets to both singapore idol final showdown shows. two for each show, to be exact. she took part in the contest which you have to guess who will be the final two, and obviously she got it right, and she was picked to be given the tickets.. i tell you, when diyana checked her email (using the class computer), and when she saw that email, she started screaming and jumping for joy. to tell you the truth, i was quite shock to see that congratulations-you-won-tickets-to singapore-idol-shows email. like dumbfounded by diyana's luck.

but anyways, congrats at winning, diy, and enjoy staring at hady. lol.

oops... i just read a friendster birthday alarm email.. and zahirah's birthday was yesterday.

sorry, zahirah. didn't know when's your birthday..

anyways,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, ZAHIRAH!!!

today, we had literature and english with the new ang moh teacher, mr john. i think he's quite boring.... but is evry nice... he corrects people's language and that's very annoying.... during english not everyone was paying attention to him ah. it was quite noisy in class..... in think he was trying hard to be patient with us....

anw, we played a game during literature, to get to know him better... it's called the mystery cloud and he wrote some words or numbers that have got to do with him, and we try to guess.... we now know that he's from manchester and like man utd (yay for man u!), likes to eat cheesecake, has 5 sisters and 2 brothers, has feet size 9, is a vegetarian,and taught in hong kong before..... yup i think that's it...

then during the last period, we had legacy, and we got to take as many little note papers on which we have to write affirmation letters to friends of our choice. the reason we're doing this is because of the exams which are coming, and we are like, encouraging our friends to do well ah..

i wrote letters to quite a number of people- alia, sakina, maryam, diyana, nadiah, nazurah, chia li, li yin and noelle... i got letters from alia, sakina, maryam, diyana and chia li... alia's and diyana's ones are nice and very touching.... nearly cried... lol.. =)


ok that's it bye

oooh.... jasmine got out.... i read today's Today newspaper just now in the morning and there is a report about jasmine. it says that jasmine's elimination wasn't surprising as she was competing with power houses hady and jonathan. the article also pointed out something i didn't really realise. the two finalist are a malay and a chinese. the malay is a 'soulman' and the chinese is a rocker. isn't it the same as taufik batisah with sylvester sim in last season's top two? soo coool..

btw, i'm supporting hady mirza... i don't don't like jon, it's just that i don't support him. his vocals are very low.. and i think he can't sing all types of genres... like, i notice whenever he sings high, he'll go so out of tune and it sounds so horrigible... that's why i think he can't really sing...

I SUPPORT HADY! VOTE FOR HADY, PEOPLE!

alia just intoduced to me a new site.. it's so funny! i mean the posts la.. go ahead go see (and read of cuz).i've linked the site... it's 'kenny' under my links..

heyhey i'm in com lab 1 in schoool... having science lesson now.. =)

another qn...

Q: Are you more of the feminine type or the masculine type of girl?

A: Masculine?? you should have used tomboy instead.. But anyway, i dunno.. I think i'm more of feminine-girlish type...
Does that answer your qn? Why bother asking such a qn anyway? lol.

ok, i'm gonna answer another tough question asked thru my question box.. here goes..

Q: What do you do when this person betrays you, and that because you're so forgiving and that you love the person as a friend, you always try to be friends with the person again? Yet scared cos the person might betray you again?

A: I would stop and think, is this person i call my friend really my friend? What IS friend? A friend does not betray you. But sometimes, when you quarrel or giving silent treatments to your friend, it's only because of a misunderstanding. A misunderstanding which we are sometimes too embarrassed to confront your friend about. The tension during a quarrel usually worsens. So we do need to confront your peers, talk things out, and get the facts straight-so you can remain friends and have a stronger trust in each other.

Don't try too hard to get her back. It can sometimes be annoying and alas, you feel more hurt. Instead, try to mix with other friends (make new friends or join a cliche, that is) act as if nothing happened between you and your friend. Even though you know there's tension between you and your friend, just say hi or smile to her whenever you see her around (in the corridors or something), but try not to do that in the classroom. Do not bother if she returns you a glare or an eye-rolling. Just keep being friendly to her. (But pls, don't act desperate. You are being friendly to her cuz you are treating her like a classmate.) Then, soon, that friend of yours will ask herself, why the heck did i start quarrelling with you? And since it seemed that the quarrel did not have any effect on you, that friend of yours will realise that the quarrel is such a waste of time, and she'll start talking to you again.

But don't just jump into being her best friend again. Take things slow. :)

you know what? i received quite a few questions sent through my question box, but they're really deep qns.. so i really need to think it through seriously cuz the qns are quite tough. so, to the persons who asked those qns (which i have yet to reply), sorry i'm taking a long time replying... i WILL reply one day....

YAY!! JOAKIM JOKER GOMEZ IS FINALLY OUT! I'M AN EXTREMELY HAPPY GOOBER ABOUT THAT!! YAYYYYY!!

TODAY'S MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!

and i texted to Power98 wishing him happy birthday on air.... and he heard it... it was quite funny..

but anyways i think today was fun...

HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY, DEAR DADAAAA!!! =)

oh yeah, i forgot to mention. about my band photo taking, when i didn't bring my shoes, well, at last i was put at the very back row (coz i'm tall xP) so my feet were not visible...

lol

omg... u know what? i nearly fainted just now...

during band we had photo taking, so we had to wear band uniform (which makes you feel damn hot when u put it on...)... the weather was soo humid, which made it worst...

then after band, when i was on the way home, on 76, i stood at that portion where you can stand instead of sitting down.... then i started feeling restless, shifting my bag from one shoulder to another.. then i started to sweat... i was feeling the heat although the air con was ok...

then i had a headache... then when nearing my bus stop, my vision suddenly blurred! and my hearing too, like i can't rily hear...
i knew i would faint if i don't sit down, but there wasn't any empty seats, and i was only one bus stop away from my destination, so i just leaned against the pole near the exit door...

then when i finally alighted i just collapsed on the bus stop seat and buried my head in my hands.... then my vision suddenly became normal a bit... i saw a mini mart nearby so i went to but sprite ice (for the cooling sensation) and two energy chocolate bars (for some energy..) which i devoured... i realised maybe it was due to my not-eating-lunch before band started that i nearly fainted........

moral of the (true) story, never stand at the 'standing portion' when you did not eat your lunch.

lol

I HATE JOAKIM GOMEZ. HIS SINGING SUX LIKE HELL. I WISH I CAN SLAP HIM HARD.

just counted my average mark for term 3... 67.something.....

do you think it's bad.. i dunno... =(

fuck fuck fuck

i'm having band photo-taking later and main band is suppose to wear full u, but i forgot to bring my shoes!!! i was like begging my mom to send them to me la.. but she dun want... so sad.... i just wish i will not be at the first row so my feet can't be seen.

i'm so screwed..

oooh... just had my first secondary level malay oral.. and i think i screwed it big time... i think my reading of the passage was a lil too fast, making me trip over some words.. there the questioning part, my teacher asked "ceritakan tentang estet perumahan anda" which means elaborate about your neighbourhood. i stared at him. i mean what can i say about HOUGANG??? it's like one of the boringest neighbourhood! at first i mentioned abt there are more chinese than malay ppl... then, i said that alot of changes are being carried out... like hougang mall added more nice and hip shops, renovated and stuff.... then he asked what else changes being carried out. i mentioned about the widening of the road beside hougang ave 5.. i think... i mentioned that a lot of ppl complained that there will always be jam in the morning cuz the road is a route to TPE...

so ya... then he asked what differences are there in your neighbourhood.. i STARED at him.. DIFFERENCES?? oh yeah, i can think of some like- hougang is sooo boring with a boooring park called punggol park (which has trees eveywhere and a dumb playground and a HUGE pond in the middle interesting yeah right)

i kept on staring and saying uuum... then at last i said hougang is more peaceful than other neighbourhoods even tho it's boring.....

'nuff said

yay no band.....

so i'm like in comp lab 1 here..playing the comp, maybe till 2.30....

we just had a run-through for the IAP party... IAP stands for Intergrated Aesthetics Program, and each sec2 class every year will have to hold a party for primary school kids from tanjong katong primary... theme party theme for my class is "Arabian Castle"... quite fun laa

we also went through the skit (one of the activities for our party)..and the entertainment people were the actors... the skit is DAMN funny ah... it's about a princess being kidnapped by an eeevil knight, and the sultan (the princess's father) asked a good knight to rescue her, and if he does, he gets to marry the princess... the way they acted was hilarious....

so yup that's it

oooh..... something grooooooosssss happened to me yesterday.....

during recess, i bought tom yam mee.... then went to the table with my frens... started eating... then... i saw sooomeethiiing inside the soup..which i thought was some kind of herb or somethin..... but then i looked closer, used my spoon... then guess WHAT is it?????



a worm! no, a millipede i tink..... it was soooooooooo grooosssss........ i immediately pushed my bowl aside to my fwens, shouting "look look!!!" i was like covering my eyes.... then i OrDeReD maryam to take it out..... then my frens told me to tell the makcik abt it so i get a new one.... so maryam puuuut back the millipede.. (ewww!!)
then i went to the stall, and the makcik change it for me... so gross. i think i'm gonna look twice-or trice-before i start eating any food. lol.

btw, my aunt found a NYMPH in her tea...... from some coffee shop... like GROSS.. and she took a sip b4 ah... ewwwwww

oooh... something interesting happened yesterday...

i was on the way home from sakina's house, when i dropped my phone...

at home i was like, where's my phone? was so kanchiong... i kept calling on my phone, but no one picked up... then i just went to sleep...

when i woke up i was like so depressed... i decided to try and call my phone again, so i did... and guest what? this chinese guy picked up!

i arranged to meet up to get my phone back... (luckily he's not that pevertic kind..)
i realised that he called NINE of my contacts to try to get them to tell me about my phone....


but the moral of the story is, i got my phone back! =D

(P/S: I LOVE ALL THE HONEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD! =D)

ok.... i kinda thought about my question box... maybe anyone can also ask me a question related to psychological terms? like got a problem? can ask for a solution thru my qn box... dun worry i wun noe who u are cuz u wud not be expected to leave your name.. i kinda want to train myself... i wanna be a psychologist..counselling and stuff..

so yup... ask me...

ok... another qn..

Q: Apakah anda ini orang?

A: Huh? Ok... I think I know who asked me this. Alia right??! Her bahasa baku very weird one. Anyway, back to the question, YES saya ORANG... I'm a human....

LOL

i received this question on 14 july..

Q: Don't you feel weird befriending old people?

A: No... Why should I?? Friends can be of various ages you know...

i'm in comp lab 1 now... during science..had online survey relating to science......

yay i'm so happy.. i registered myself for the sbs promotion; about the tap in and tap out... i only have 10 e-tokens... damn ah.. i din noe had to tap out oso... cuz i'm using stamp for ez link.... if not i would have like hundreds of tokens already cuz i take the bus at 6 times a day.......

the i estimated, i would only have like, about 50 tokens at the end of the promotion... what to bid? only e-stamps... i want ipod!!! ok... now my plan is to take the bus routes which i have to take more buses... nevermind if i'm wasting time... i want ipod!!!

=D

ok. i received this question on june 29, but i'm just gonna answer it now...

Q: What inspired you to join the symphonic band?

A: Well, I know that I joined the symphonic band NOT because I felt that I didn't fit into other CCAs, but because I was awed at the performance by the band during CCA promotion day. Haha. To tell you the truth, I kind of imagined myself in the band uniform (cuz they all looked so smart in them) and i liked it. Ok ah, even tho i nearly quitted last year (cuz of too much pressure), I'm glad I didn't. I love band! And during band, I can forget everything else, my worries and stuf, bacause once band starts, feels like a whole new world, just me, and the band. Hahah, ok, i'm being a bit emo. So there, I've answered your question. Whoever you are..

should i go for band? cuz i'm having a fever... i suddenly fell sick on wednesday..after band. maybe i'm too stressed over band-cuz theses days got ALOT of performances and stuff- and i also did not have enough sleep. yep.. i kept watching TV till abt 11.30pm latest... i should give myself a break...

so here i am, in comp lab 1, band starts at 1.30pm later, but i'm sick! i'm reluctant to skip band cuz competition's this friday...

speaking of the competition, wish my school band luck! wait, better yet, pray for us!


=)

hahah... i skipped school today... too tired sey! yesterday concert and all.... yup... actually the band ppl are allowed to come to school at 8.30..and i was planning to come at 8.30.. but then, when i woke up in the morning, my head was like THROBBING like hell... so then when alia msgd me in the morning, we were like asking each other whether we coming to school onot, but at last, both of us absent from school.... yay... wow, like you're interested. sorry. i noe it's not fascinating... LOL. i'm writing crap. whatever. toodles.

YESTERDAY WAS OURCONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS NICE!! but it wasnt perfect ahh.. BUT NICE...FOR MY FIRST CONCERT.....................

the band ppl got to get out of class at 9.30am.... i had lit before that, and i had many many butterflies in my stomach..serious.. i couldnt concentrate on the lessons...

then, at abt 12 something (after we all have changed into our band u), we headed to VCH.....

at VCH, we were assigned to rooms at the backstage, so we went to our respective rooms with our instruments. my section shared a room with euphonium and double base...

then, we went to the stage and rehearse with ms sia conducting...........


THEN, blah blah blah blah blah blah,


after the concert (and after ALOT of cheering from the audience =D), i tell you, ALOT ALOT ALOT of ppl SWARMED the backstage you knowwww.... so scary! like as if someone getting married and ppl rushing to get inside the room to get a peek at the bride.. lol.
BUT SCARY.

but anyways, i recieved little presents from my band mates (and seniors.)
=)))
first liyana gave two calbury chocos, three ferrero rochers (did i spell it right?), and a letter..

then laura gave a cute butterfly hovering on stick (okaayy, that sounds weird. nvm, hard to explain anw.) , a rose and a letter

then azura gave a TOP choco and a handful of sweets.

yuthra gave two sweets.

hsin yu (wait, sorry if i spelt it wrong ) gave a daisy.

asyiqin gave a rose

meetrra gave four ferrero rochers.

weeling gave a flower shaped lolly.

gek teng (sorry if i spelt wrongly..) gave a rose.

so yup. but guess what? i din get ANYONE ANYTHING.

shit right?

sighs.


but anyway yesterday was fun.

OH MY GOD.
TOMORROW'S OUR CONCERT..... OOH..

i suddenly feel butterflies in my stomach.......

but guess what? there are still some tickets not sold u noee..
i mean, our concert's not gonna be boring u noee.....
it's gonna be niceee =)))))))

whatever la, i'm nervous.

WAAAA

aiyooo..... had band... ON YOUTH DAY SUMMORE... WHAT THE....

it was from 8am till about 1pm, but my section stayed back till 3 to polish out instruments.... YES it's VERY SHINY NOW... =)))))))))))))

but then ah, IT'S YOUTH DAY for god's sake.
then agian, our concert is like on wednesday, so they probly take advantage of the youth day holiday to have band prac......

wadeva laa

OMG.... BRAZIL LOST OVER FRANCE????? HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHHHH!!!!!!! i tink ah, brazil was too confident. BAH BRAZIL! i oso dun like brazil.....

i bet nazurah was like jumping for joy and could not wait to laugh at alia and i ah, cuz we kept shouting at her before that brazil was going to win without a doubt. (yep, naz support france xP)

YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PORTUGAL WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OVER ENGLAND!!!!!!!!!!! BOO ENGLAND!! HAHA!!!! SERVE ROONEY RIGHT FOR KICKING THAT GUY'S CROTCH AND GETTING THE REDS FOR IT!! I DUN LIKE ROONEY..... NOT FAIR THAT RONALDO IS BLAMED.....

i dun like rooney....

i strongly think that Cristiano ronaldo didn't mean to get rooney out. i mean, who would just leave it alone if your teammate is hurt and the opponent not getting any punishment for hurting him? c.ronaldo was just defending his teammate...

so childish sey... cristiano so poor thing kena hated until he dowan to go back to manchester utd.. i heard he'd like to join real madrid.. WHATEVER IT IS, CRISTIANO, I WILL SUPPORT U!!! =))))))))

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YAYYYYY!!!!!! YAYYYYY!!!!!! YAYYYY!!!!!!


wondering why i'm so happy?


IT'S BECAUSE I'VE GOT MY TICKETS AREDII!!!


my band concert, that is. actually the tickets are for my parents, but wadeva.

anw, when i first laid my eyes on them, they look soo are nice! nicer tickets then the DANCE CONCERT..... (even maryam says so) i was like, wow the tickets to my very first concert.. while staring at it...


hahah! i love the tickets! CANT WAIT FOR THE CONCERT!!

A QN SENT THRU MY QN BOX.

Q: What do you think about TKGS as a whole?
A: I think TKGS has school spirit, as in, we support one another, every one of us. But sometimes, some tkgians can be sooo bitchy, i can't stand them. Most people (from other schools) say that tkgians are bimbos and we act as if we're superior and are snobbish. Well, my opinion is that, don't the students from all schools act like that sometimes? Haha, maybe ppl talk like that about us because we are mostly out in the open, and like to express ourselves? Isn't that better then being an unactive school that almost nobody is interested in, and are always keeping to themselves, not mingling with the public?

Sometimes, when i step into the school compound in the morning, i feel as if we tkgians know each other (not yet the sec1s), that's school spirit. At least, Sec 2 batch of 2006 (us!), have the 'level spirit'. I do feel that every assembly. =)))) yay for us!! =D

to tkgians!!
COME TO THE SYMPHONIC BAND CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it will be soooo nice!!!!! RILY!!!!!!

TICKETS ARE $12 AND $15 (for circle seats)
VICTORIA CONCERT HALL VERY NICE... =)))))

THE SONGS WE PLAYING ALSO VERY NICE.... =))))))))))

Songs include
YIDDISH DANCES (catchy!)
THE WITCH AND THE SAINT (DAMN NICE!! I LOVE!! =D)
THE INCREDIBLES (yes, from that pixar movie!)
BEAUTY AND THE BEAST (from the disney movie)
A WHOLE NEW WORLD (from the ALLADIN movie)
AND MORE!!!

REALLY!!! IT'S RILYYY NICE!!

SO BOOK UR TIX K?

a question sent thru my question box=

Q: Wah.. so long no qn arh.. hehe. here's one. who do you find irritating and weird right now?

A: Ermm... there's this guy.... older than me...whom i find seriously irritating and weird, but sorry, i won't be mentioning names.. xP

lol... i'm like going holiday on the 12th and suppose to ask ms sia to sign leave form 1 week in advance, but jux signed today lol.

so this was how it happened:

i tot ms sia waas like, gonna scold me, but when i went up to her,

ms sia: what?
me: erm. sign leave form.
ms sia: oh. how many days?
me: er one. erm sorry i din ask u earlier-
ms sia: oh ok. (signs the form without looking at the date i was taking leave)

lol



the end.

THE REAL THING! BALLOON HAT FESTIVAL IN SENTOSA!!!!

yesterday la..

it was soo fun!! we had sit down performance first and played mermaid medley, under the double eagle, and... er... forgot. lol


for the marching we played little mermaid..

ok la... whatever la... no nid in details la..

oooooh.... i saw nuri.. on the bus. bus 76.


was like twilight zone (in the morning wat... got band) and i boarded 76, then tap my card, and turned, and the first face i saw was him. in in yellow jersey. haha so what lol.

had balloon hat festival rehearsal today!!!!


it was sooo funnn!!!! BUT VERY TIRING!!!

btw it was in sentosa... then ah, the finale, there was this guy who played woodblock and he was like dancing and shaking his bootie... eewww me and azura call him gay. loll

alia, sakina, nadiah and i had grp meeting for geog and maths projects at pasir ris library... hahah we were suppose to meet at 11am, but i reached at 11.30..... lol..

had band just now... a japanese conductor (from a japanese school) was invited to my school.... he went thru a movement for rosa with us, but he couldn't speak english, so there's this guy who translates everything he say, for us....loll

then ah, i'm very glad there's the jap conductor. he rily rily improve us u noe..... (we playing rosa for competition, see?) and i'm amazed ah...haha


then ah... i came home, realised that my mp4 is gone from my purse, i knew that my sis took it, so i demanded it from her ah, and then ah, GUESS WHAT? THE SCREEN IS BROKEN! like not shattered ah, but got this horrible crack lines! ARRRGHHH! I SCREAMED LIKE HELL, STRANGLED HER, GRABBED A KNIFE, STABBED AT HER NECK, AND STOMP ON HER BODY.



er.. of coz not.... i complained to my mom....and she got scolding... WADEVA LA... IDIOT...

gosh. i am sooo tired. i'm sure my eye bags are quite heavy..... i am not getting enough rest these days.... watched supernanny last night...

we had operation clean up for the last period.... it was fun! my class, 2e6, worked together and all went well and fast (even tho our TWO form teachers were NEVER in school for very long.) yep. we kinda worked as a team.


good job to us! =)

yay! the symphonic band performed during recess today for the recess performance! i was involved la. we played Beauty and the Beast first, next Carmen Fantasy and lastly A Movement for Rosa.

the band members had to go to the vivaldi room (the music room) at 9 am... (even tho recess is only at 10.25...) SO YES! we get to skip lessons! YAY..

so i got to skip history (YAAAAYYY!!!!) and english (NOOOOOOO!!) before recess.

so during recess, after a crowd had gathered, we started playing (with ms sia conducting). i was so happy that alia and sakina could come see the performance. thx darlings!

and btw, I LOVE THE PERFORMANCE! I HAD SOO MUCH FUN! tho i did feel nervous and was shaking even after it ended...

(the carmen part was fab! but the rosa.... eerrghh..)

then i asked alia and sakina what they think abt it. alia liked the carmen fantasy (me too!), sakina liked the rosa.....


and then, after school, the sec2s had a movie screening, A Little Princess, at the sch studio for literature enrichment. gosh the movie was fab! the actor as Sara is sooo damn gorgeous! so jealous!! i think she also looks like Maria Hertogh. lol.

the part when she was taken away by the policemen, and sara was shouting for her dad (who had amnesia and couldn't rmb sara) was soooo damn sad!!! i cried..... *sniff*

then after the movie, i was shocked to find that it was raining! i din have an umbrella, so i shared with li yin.... and we got 'splashed' by quite a number of cars, at the bus stop. lol......


so next time, must bring umbrella....

in the school library right now. just had a talk by this psychologist. gosh his talk was rily informative and interesting! it's about making ourselves employable in the years to come. his talk taught me that it is a rily difficult and large world out there. he said there are even some highly qualified scholars who still can't even find a job. that must be tough!

well, the speaker is a psychoologist [=)] and he said when he wanted to become a lawyer, he asked a professional about it, and found out that being a lawyer, one of the important things you must have is a rily DAMN good memory. aiyo. then when he wanted to become a psychologist, he asked his cousin abt it, and found out that being a psychologist, you have to be good in subjects ENGLISH and MATHS. i never knew. well, now i know. since i DREAM to, and hopefully will, become a psychologist, i guess i hell have to improve my english and maths grades.

YES. i am going to work harder for maths and english.


MATHS.





sigh.

yay. i'm here in the school library, doing the entrepreneur thing. completed my leter thing. owe li yin two plain paper. hmph.

hahah! li yin you are crazy!! hawhaw!


sook yee says li yin is going cuckoo. lol.

yay. i'm enjoying doing the english entrepreneur thing... luv li yin... =) she's so cute. hahah! lols!

ok. this annie stuff is just for fun ok? if anyone has a problem with it, keep it to yourself.

annie's been bugging me.

annie died. she died long ago in home economics kitchen of the old TKGS building. rachel seah saw her. siiting on that old stool. annie followed to the new school building's home economics kitchen with the stool. rachel saw her. she talked to her. but i couldn't see her. annie followed rachel out of the kitchen and now, annie follows everywhere rachel goes. sometimes annie's gone. but when she's with rachel, annie would play with rachel. annie sometimes told rachel to follow me. i get scared. i run away. annie will get mad. and then she would run away from rachel. and rachel would blame me for making annie angry.

but sometimes annie is nice to me. but i don't like her. i don't like annie. annie scares me.

annie is not my friend.

hello. i'm so happy! i've got 81% for my geog! yay!!! A1! so happy......!
but now i'm sad. my science marks are so terrible ferrible. WAAAAA!!!!! dowan to tell you how much. x'(


hmph

today's mothers' day! love you jamilah abdul ghani- my MOTHER!!!

my sis, kak nana and i made CUPCAKES for mummy! nice chocolate FUDGE cupcakes!

and my younger sis, lin, made this really nice thing with a giant red heart in the middle (i helped too!) where we wrote a message

Hanyalah dirimu permata hatiku

Setinggi langit, seluas bumi pengorbananmu

Bagaikan lilin membakar diri, Kau menyinarkan cahaya bakti

Budimu suci bak embun pagi

Dikaulah ibu yang ku sanjungi.

we changed our seating arrangements today. at first, i din want to change, but i'm kinda ok with it.. kinda like my new seat. so cozy =) on my left is rachel seah, in front, sarah tan, behind, maryam, and right, sakina. well, it's nice la.. heheh..

there was suppose to be chinese(special prog) today but it's cancelled. on next monday oso.


hahah. mdm azizan so funny today. while she was having one to one eng remedial with chia li....


luuurve mdm azizan! she rocKS!

almost everyhting are folding out like before. ALMOST. very slowly. but slow's fine. we're ok. i'm glad. hating frens is no fun and hurtful. i dun want this type of thing to ever happen between me and my frens EVER AGAIN. i jux want trusting and understanding friends.






above all, friends are too precious.

to be honest, i want everything like they were before. but it is impossible right now. how i wish everything will change.

sakina was absent today. she developed fever. poor girl. get well soon sakina! =) gloria too!

tsk tsk..

we had speech day full dress rehearsal just now.... we (talking abt the band members) had to put on every piece of our band uniform... SuCkY sey! the skirt was quite tight for me etc... but i like the feel of putting on the pantyhose. hehehx! xP but on top of all that, LUCKILY that time wasn't so bloody hot..! it was quite cool. almost thought tt i was gonna rain. but it din. so ya la... blaahdeedaaaa.....


toodles.


P/S: i love the band hat. =D

someone in class played a prank on a teacher and got into trouble....

i vomitted at 5am jux now. i dunno y. but i know it's not because of what i ate cuz everything i ate yesterday, my family aslo eat. but nothing happened to them.
but. ya... that's all.









if you're thinking "oooohh, she must be pregnant!", slap ur face. cuz i'm NOT. hmph.