oh my god, i bet yesterday was the worst day of my life! as now i'm sec3, we're all mixed up in different classes.. in my class, there's only me and denise who were from 2/6.. so i practically do not know the rest, or i hardly ever speak to them for the last two years.... denise's has her dance friends, the rest has their own cliques, like so many cliques ah! and because of this, i dun think it bothers them if they dun make new friends.. so i'm like loner ah..!

i was sooo miserable.. during assembly and flag raising and all (which was held in the hall), i went to 3/3 row la, but since i dunno anyone i wen riiight to the back (in my school, the rows are horizontal, not vertical) and was quite squashed and i felt like the odd one... i kept thinking and worrying about it, i had a headache... and we went to the hall a coupla times, so i went to sit with alia at her 3/8 class row (she, too felt so out from her class)... but then, during the last period, when we went to the hall again, i had to sit in my own row, so i'm like, sitting alone and i felt lke as if there're too many ppl around me making me feel uneasy... then mdm lenny was talking abt school rules and all (she was reminding us of them '-.-), then she suddenly told us to 'turn to your partner' and 'check if she broke any rules'! i mean, i'm alone! in my heart i was like swearing and going 'this woman is making my life miserable'.

sigh... i dunno why this is happening. it's worst than when you're in sec1... no cliques have been formed yet in sec1.............. sigh....