haha so cute right?

i miss my sister so much.. she's in vietnam for like more than a week aredi. will only be coming back on 21 may...

sigh, i'm even dreaming abt my sister. hahas. second time aredi.
lols.

she very kesian la. all those things happening there she has to endure. like they expect her to take off her tudung (the malay scarf)..??!! that's so bloody rude! it's like part of religion wad! my mom's really worried abt her.

kak isyah, we all wish you well in vietnam. can't wait to have you back!


P/S: we promise you that buffet when you come back! =DDD



keep holding on...

my eyes feel heavy.

hello, alia my darling.

this freaking world is so freaking small. she knows her, who knows him, who knows me. lol...

and she freaking went to watch the dikir barat competition at ngee ann poly which i had also went to watch..!
wth we were so close!


freaky man.

today was weird. haha dai ling and agnes and tricia was so crazy. haha, agnes! dirty minded ah!

PE was okok-fun. we jumped on trampoline and stuff. loved it. i thinkkk...

CSP lessons are never pure boring. mrs andre is just so sporting. she's not the type of teacher who is no-nonsense-ever. even tho nad and i did not come for lessons for three times (i think, but it's because we had something on, and there was a misunderstanding), she did not scold us. no wonder i would feel guilty whenever we deliberately wanna skip lesson. cuz she's sooo nice to us.. ok i;m gonna work hard for csp. thinking of doing o level paper for it.

i hate being skinny. and i get so much stupid bad talk or mockery or comments (watever you wanna call it) abt my 'skinniness. like "wahlao you're so skiiny!" or "omg you so skinny, look so scary!" or simply stares. like wishing to try to get rid of me or wad? i feel sad you. know. tell me, why do people hardly ever comment overweight ppl that they are fat? because afraid of hurting their feelings right? please la. skinny ppl also have feelings. i really really wanna get fat, same like overweight ppl wanting to get slim!

pls k, we have feelings.

ice cream is suddenly everywhere in my life right now.

had band today.. ms sia said she'll be buying ice cream for us! =D why? for the effort during the inter-CCA relay during sports day. we suppose to have won second, but got disqualified. apparantly the second runner went to cut into someone else's lane. bummer.

so anw, after band i followed my family to go to Giant at tampines. i wore my new shoes. =DD

initially was going to buy memory card for my phone. but my dad tot he saw the price at $19, but like no... that $19 thing was not even a memory card ah. the one i wanted to buy was $60+ so my dad say no, too expensive. i sulked.

then i grabbed a BBQ LAYS chips and asked my dad to buy it. (it was kinda to pay back for not buying the memory card, cuz to my dad, a $3 bag of chips is too much. so there.)

then outside there was an ice cream promotion going on. very cheap cheap. we bought four tubs. hahah!

SPORTS DAY WAS TODAY!

IT WAS SO FUN!

at first i totally did not have mood for sports day, it was like afternoon after school ah... but school ended at 11.15am.. we had to get to bedok stadium (where it's held) by 1.30pm... so azura, atifa and i plan to eat at kfc near the stadium at bedok. alia and sakina couldn't come. so sad ah. they went to their grannies' houses.

so anw, i took 33 to bedok interchange with alia and sakina. azura and atifa took 197. i ended up reaching the interchange way earlier than they did. waited quite long ah (hmph!)... then when they came, i saw ili and another girl whose name slips my mind (they're azura's and atifa's frens) and diyana came along too..

so we went to kfc.... i kinda ate quite a lot..

bought two piece chicken, whipped potato, cheese fries and a drink. i thought i was damn damn hungry cuz i was feeling so weak and hungry on the way to bedok. but, when i was like 3/4 finished with my chicken(s), i realised i still have half of cheese fries and the whipped potato and 4/5 of drink! haha was quite shock. and then ah, and then ah, my mood was so spoilt because of someone. atifa's right la. most ppl find her "entertaining" but there'll still be some who find her annoying as a bee. i am one of those ppl of the second grp. i dunno la, i tried to like her, but she's just gets on my sensitive nerve. until she made that stupid comment, wahlao i felt like telling her off and making her shuddup. so ya.. oh ya. i dropped my whipped potato.

so i was so pissed all the way to bedok stadium (i think only atifa knew that), not because of the whipped potato, until when we went to the sec3s part, I SAW CHIA LI!! i feel so happy everytime i see her, cuz we were close frens and she went to temasek jc thru IP... she brought along her laptop for schoolwork (!) and when diyana found out that there's wireless connection, she immediately grabbed it and surfed the net. well, of coz she asked chia li's permission 1st la. oh ya, everyone got an ice cream each, a treat from our FMs. =DD

it rained when the lower sec was having their novelty events. so funny! haha. they all started rushing to shelter. then the student helpers were like stuck under huge umbrellas, which they couldnt move, duh, and mr see "went to the rescue" . lol. i saw him running in the rain without an umbrella over his head, and as i stared at him i realised he was cupping umbrellas under his arm! i was like wispering to alia "aren't those umbrellas he's holding?" and alia laughed and said he's trying to act heroic. lols ah! i tot he was being quite dumb.

then there was the cheerleading competition. my class got into the finals and 3/3 was better than 3/2 =DD... but i admit 3/2 was quite good too. i just saw much more confidence in my class' cheer team. very proud of them. 3/3 won! =DDD we oso won second for class banner. funny thing tho, 3/5 din even win 3rd for banner competition even tho their design was classy! i could see the fivers' reaction. pity them.

then, during the mass dance, i partnered up with diyana (tho she's from 3/2). my partner had to do red cross duty and hers was absent..

haha mass dance was a DISASTER. i guess the music wasn't clear enuf and we din know what came next. the sec3s were the 1st to make a 'disaster' out of the dance. we only danced te steps for like ten seconds, and then you could see the sec3s part full of ppl joined in circles. haha we played around.. spinning and spinning and banging into each other. so fun! then we did banga dance... went alll around the track. it was soooo damn fun!! but exhausting.

then when we went back to the stands, i was quite tired and my butt was aching, so i din make so much movement.and then diyana started taking pictures of herself using her phone. hahas.

it was all fun. it ended at 7, when it was actually suppose to have ended at 5.30... but it was fun... =DDD

it was raining!

sec3 novelty event. i'm the only one wearing the green track pants.

syafiqah and me!

the ICE CREAM.



haha. enjoying ice cream.

playing around.

cheerleaders getting prepared.

cheer routine.

cheerleading competition starting. crowd gathering.

cheer team.

cheering! =D

mass dance!

banga dance!

OMG I AM SO BLOODY ****ING COLD!!!!!

WHY MUST THE FREAKING LIBRARY SET THE AIR CON TEMPERATURE TO SO LOW!!! and summore, i'm right below the ****ing air con.

i've always not loved air conditioning. i dun hate it, but come on lah, we need soo cold when it's ALREADY COLD OUTSIDE? it just bloody rained just now! ok maybe the reason i feel so cold easily is because i'm skinny, but isn't 22degrees celsius comfortable enough?

haiz.. i feel the need to pee. bloody low temperature.

we had bio formative test today it was kinda easy. but i know that i did the first question wrong! because of carelessness and negligence! Benedict's test is for reducing sugar lah toot!
and then, after the test, mr peh was like tricking us, saying "because there was a leak about the test, i am going to have to give you another question." and it was an essay question ah! about the importance of carbohydrates. wah lao. if protein or lipids i would know how to answer ah! so anyway, i already suspected the "it's part of the test" thing was just a scare (he always does that!), and he just wanted to test how much we know. so i din rily take it seriously. i din know what else to write, anyway. was stoning most of the time.

i just had a maths remedial (yep, i suck at it). it was ok. the questions mrs loy gave are easy and i could answer (:DDD). i learn two new things actually (she said it would be included in MYE), and i wondered what abt thosewho do not attend remedial? would they learn the formulas in time? i dunno.. oh ya. i think mrs loy thinks that mdm lenny teaches very slow. loll. anw we had to have 2 days to cover one topic -congruence and similarities (which isn't very difficult). but nvm mdm lenny, just do your thing. =DD

wow. i'm so hungry. i haven't eaten lunch and medicine (and i'm sick!). oh and have not prayed.

lol

i absent myself from school today. cuz of fever. yesterday i was rily sick. temperature was 37.74 degrees celsius.. i'm kinda sad that none of my close friends have not yet text message me today asking how i'm doing or even why i'm absent. but maybe there're still in school.

you know what? i guess it's true that support or just being there for someone is worth more that gifts and presents.

this sunday's my mom's birthday. i'm not sure what to get for her!

any suggestions? =DD

right now, i'm in the library, racking my brains on what to write for my newspaper article assingnment. damn ah, tomorrow's the deadline. sigh. i vowed to myself never to do last minute work again, but here i am, 24hours away from that deadly deadline, with hardly anything done. lols. i'm suppose to have csp now... dun feel like going at all. even hiranya, dhwani and nadiah are planning to skip. but i pity mrs andre. she's like sooo nice to us....

lols. i feel stress now. hahahahahahaha.


and maybe crazy.HAHAHAHAHAHA

yesterday my sister baked cookies. or brownies. er. i dont rily know what it was exactly. but it's edible. she used betty crocker's batter. it was supposed to be a cookie batter, but my sis just poured the whole cookie dough into the tin, intending to make cookie bars with chocolate on top. we tot it was supposed to be hard cuz it's COOKIE DOUGH. so we kinda left it in the oven for quite long. like 45 minutes. so it's like hard, and chewy and partially dark dark BROWN. haha.
then my sister when down to buy ice cream to eat with the 'brownie', but it still tasted weird. to be honest, i was quite scared to eat it at first. haha.
at last, my sister threw the rest of it away. sigh. wasted sey.

today's biology lesson was fun and inspiring. mr peh shared with us his journey in life. like he said he was very naughty when he was in sec sch. but he started doing damn well in his studies at JC2. i think he's a good role model.i have respect for him. =D

i ran pt today. hence i felt soo tired. ran 10 rounds.

oh my gosh i have a problem. one of my darkest secrets- a problem. i think i'm crazy. help me alia.

i just wanna forget EVERYTHING and SLEEP. with no worries. no thoughts.

At times too many,
It's unfair.
They get them.
I don't.
No at ALL.
Neglected.
Is how I feel.
Can't take it.
Too much.
Must cry.




hmmm... you know what? i realise that i'm that emo kind of person. lol.

today i cried. because life isn't fair.

today's my kakak's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK NANA!! =DDD

anyway, yesterday, we kinda celebrated it (and ayat's birthday which was on 17th Feb) at pasir ris beach which my relatives at my mom's side. actually it was cik ahysa who organized the camp. so my family just went to johore in the morning to but a cake from Secret Recipe. it was yum yum!

the guys singing to themselves. lol.

our BBQ pit. hawhaw.

the cake!

bday boy, bday girl.

cake smeared onto ayat and kak nana.

and cik ahysa...

and finally kak isyah. lol.

yep. had fun! =DD

i took a What's Your Real Beauty test on Tickle.

Amirah, your Intelligence makes you a real beauty

There's nothing more beautiful than a good head on your shoulders. Witty and wise, you're never short on interesting conversation or an informed opinion. You like to stay on top of what's going on around you. From world events to local hot spots, you don't wanna miss a beat.But all those smarts don't mean your nose is in a book all day. You're a friendly soul who knows how to have a good time and whoop it up. From grabbing a casual dinner with friends to checking out a hip, new art exhibit, you're not afraid to have a little fun. What could be smarter than that?

=D

i'm feeling very sad as my maternal grandma is now in hospital as she has fracture three of her bones due to a fall which happened in my home. in my room.when my sister and i were not home. does not wish to elaborate. too sad. =(

alia calls me aminah and i call her bedah. =D

i'm still working on my next posts...

my bruised elbow still hurts.... god, oh god, please, i beg of you, heal my (physical) wounds in time for OBS. please pleeeeease..........................................

i'm like absent from school today.... the right knee is so numb from yesterday's fall.. damn painful to walk...

yesterday was sooo unlucky for me. and diyana... in the morning when the time everyone assembles at the courtyard, aka assembly time, me and diyana were walking and strolling and talking (the music was still being played) to the courtyard and then suddenly the music stopped (indicating that we are late !) and everyone started running to get to out class rows.. including me and diyana la.. but then ah, suddenly, SUDDENLY, i felt i was falling towards the ground. i tripped! i had nooo idea how that happened, but it did. then when i lokked up, some of the ppl stopped running to help/look at me (tt time i din know diy oso fell).. this sec2 prefect helped me up and i was asking her "What happened? what happened??" then i saw diyana on the ground behind me.. so weird right? we both fell together.. i think someone tripped me as i could feel the foot tangled with mine.. but dunno whose la...

yep.... i bruised both knees, my left elbow, and two fingers of my right hand.. bad right.. diyana oso... =(((

cikgu zain (my hml teacher) made up this thing. HE (only he) claims that 'ghoti' is pronounced as 'fish'. reason? ok, in rough, the gh is pronounced as 'ff' right, so he pronounce the 'gh' in ghoti that way oso. then in women, the 'o' pronounced as 'ee' right, so same to in ghoti. then, in 'nation', the ti is like 'shh' right, so it's the sami as in ghoti.. so ghoti is pronouced as fish TO mr zain. lol

i'm so hungry. i think..

P/S: Geog and chem lessons were fun! =D

To R.I. Shame, shame.....

i mean, you LOST over LOYANG SEC for god's sake!

the first speaker for RI wasn't good... he didn't even rebutt the loyang girl... oh speaking of that shanaz girl, wow i'm SO impressed by her, man...! she speak sooo damn well, i LOVE her accent and voice.. it's so sweet... and she was a damn good speaker for the loyang team..

but ah, i dun understand why the last speaker for loyang had way more points than RI's speaker.. if you were listening closely, she was half talking gibberish! she went out of point many times. on the other hand i love the facts that RI had presented. at least they live up to what they're called.. FACTS. the loyang girls even had some of the soccer facts wrong.. -.-'

but, shame, shame, RI.....

i was reading all my old posts, and i came across one which is my answer to a qn asked thru my qn box. i think i want to repost it again as i think it'll be useful to those who have not read it b4, but has the same problem:

Q: What do you do when this person betrays you, and that because you're so forgiving and that you love the person as a friend, you always try to be friends with the person again? Yet scared cos the person might betray you again?

A: I would stop and think, is this person i call my friend really my friend? What IS friend? A friend does not betray you. But sometimes, when you quarrel or giving silent treatments to your friend, it's only because of a misunderstanding. A misunderstanding which you both are sometimes too embarrassed to confront each other about. The tension during a quarrel usually worsens. So we do need to confront your peers, talk things out, and get the facts straight-so you can remain friends and have a stronger trust in each other.

Don't try too hard to get her back. It can sometimes be annoying and alas, you feel more hurt. Instead, try to mix with other friends (make new friends or join a clique, that is) act as if nothing happened between you and your friend. Even though you know there's tension between you and your friend, just say hi or at least smile to her whenever you see her around (in the corridors or something), but try not to do that in the classroom. Do not bother if she returns you a glare or an eye-rolling. Just keep being friendly to her. (But pls, don't act desperate. You are being friendly to her cuz you are treating her like a classmate.) Then, soon, that friend of yours will ask herself, why the heck did i start quarrelling with you? And since it seemed that the quarrel did not have any effect on you, that friend of yours will realise that the quarrel is such a waste of time, and she'll start talking to you again.

But don't just jump into being her best friend again. Take things slow. :)

cry. i'm having a fever... maybe i was soo depressed that i fell sick.

cry.

i'm having a headache.

just came back from singapore discovery centre... with my new class... gosh... i have never not looked forward to a class outing before sey.... yesterday night i was so dreading for that trip.. sigh..

on the bus, i sat alone... =( being in this class, i can't be myself.. the real me is one who loves to joke around with friends and smile everytime i'm around them.. but, because this class has their own cliques, it's hard to make friends and be easy around them. i miss 2/6 people so much!!!! i loved all the people in that class... felt like family..... ="(((

then, when we were there, whenever i see my friends, i would go hang with them, and realise how much i treasure and love all my friends....

if not with my friends, i would walk alone while looking at the exhibits... so actually i paid attention to everything there was to be learnt... so it was very interesting... we watched Wired to Win in the iWerks theatre.. that documentary is sooooooooo nice.. it's such a great motivational documentary... i nearly cried, as it made me think about life and the future.. :) i'm a sensitive person. that's all...

anw, alia was in no better position than me... like me, she's miserable in her class, she has no one to talk to, and she misses me. hahah! =D

anw, alia gave me this keychain she bought from LA... it's so nice! i shall treasure it. =)

oh my god, i bet yesterday was the worst day of my life! as now i'm sec3, we're all mixed up in different classes.. in my class, there's only me and denise who were from 2/6.. so i practically do not know the rest, or i hardly ever speak to them for the last two years.... denise's has her dance friends, the rest has their own cliques, like so many cliques ah! and because of this, i dun think it bothers them if they dun make new friends.. so i'm like loner ah..!

i was sooo miserable.. during assembly and flag raising and all (which was held in the hall), i went to 3/3 row la, but since i dunno anyone i wen riiight to the back (in my school, the rows are horizontal, not vertical) and was quite squashed and i felt like the odd one... i kept thinking and worrying about it, i had a headache... and we went to the hall a coupla times, so i went to sit with alia at her 3/8 class row (she, too felt so out from her class)... but then, during the last period, when we went to the hall again, i had to sit in my own row, so i'm like, sitting alone and i felt lke as if there're too many ppl around me making me feel uneasy... then mdm lenny was talking abt school rules and all (she was reminding us of them '-.-), then she suddenly told us to 'turn to your partner' and 'check if she broke any rules'! i mean, i'm alone! in my heart i was like swearing and going 'this woman is making my life miserable'.

sigh... i dunno why this is happening. it's worst than when you're in sec1... no cliques have been formed yet in sec1.............. sigh....

my parents went to batam with a friend and his wife yesterday, so my siblings and i are left alone at home. =D so we decided to go out and watch a movie with two of our cousins yesterday. but sadly, my eldest sis couldn't come with us as she had to go to school..

so btw, it was just me, kak nana, lin, humairah and her sis kauthar. humairah got a free GV movie ticket, which is why we decided to catch a movie at tampines mall... we watched Deja Vu, which is sooo bloody nice. it's that type of complicating movies, which i like, like The Lakehouse..

so yea.. after that, we went to century square to eat at Food Culture, which i din know exists... that's when it started to rain sooo heavily...

after that, we decided to go library.. as it was raining, we had to run in the rain whenever there isn't a shelter over our heads, and duh, we were drenched.. haha here's almost all the pics we took.

me and humairah

i suddenly feel like blogging abt my top five favourite food in the world.

1. Sup tulang of my grandmother's recipe which is being passed down the generations.
2. My mom's fried macaroni.
3. Burger King's double rendang burger
4. My mom's spagetti.
5. Macdonald's double cheeseburger.


=D

haha. i found out about something incredibly incredible. heee but i'm not gonna publish it. xP

:DDDDDDDDDDD

yesterday, i went to the airport to see my friends off to japan, which is for something like an educational thing for band (my cca). then after talking talking, taking pictures, and seeing them check in the luggage, i sunddenly felt this pang in my chest. i think it was jealousy and regret. i could have gone too, if it wasn't for the food problem. i mean, it's SOOO hard to find halal food in japan! what's more, in the program catalogue, it's written that the places where they're gonna eat include the hotel and a chinese restaurant..! like, isn't that obvious it's not gonna be halal?? wat? starve for 7 days, or eat instant stuff brought from singapore for the whole trip??

but anw, back to the feelings of jealousy and regret. as i watched them all gathered at the airport pulling along their luggages, chatting atimatedly with friends, while wearing the windbreaker specially made for that japan tour (which sadly, i dun get), i imagined them having fun in japan. i mean they're oso going to tokyo disneyland and disneysea, and also taking a bullet train for the experience! seriously, if they had assured me that there will be halal food, i would definitely go. right now, i'm just constantly looking at the clock and asking myself, "i wonder what they're doing now". i miss them! mostly, i miss azura! i won't get to text message her for 7 days!! we were planning on going escape theme park together... boo hoo.. and i miss alia too! she's away in los angelas and and i can't text msg her too!

cry.

i watched rich girls on mtv.. and i think alexandria hilfiger is so humble. she's not a bitch like most rich girls are, and she has such a cool dad!

i wonder what's wrong with my blog. the background at my links are all white.. O.o

yesterday was the First National Creative Music Competiton at University Cultural Centre Theatre at NUS.. it was fun ah. when we first got there, we saw ping yi military band, or was it springfield? cuz both have the same uniform since both bands combined.. so ya....

then we went into the theatre to rehearse. there was cedar band and compassvale band sitting in there laa... scared of screwing up in front of them..

then it was cedar band's turn to rehearse, and they were okok la.. they played retro songs and their gimmicks and dances were rily cute, but rily not coordinated, and their playing was oso not that nice lol.

yep... so blahdeeda deedaa...

so at last, tkgssb din win the $1000 first prize for the creative band.. but we won the musical award and $200..and that means our sound was goood =DDDDD.. and our dances were, er, not soo good.. lol. cedar won appreciation of showing potential and $150, i think.

the winner of the $1000 prize money and the creative band award was Compassvale sec sch military band.. which was weird. i dun think there were rily good... the band played while a lot of others (who i dun think are part of the band) acted out in front. it looked quite weird la.. it was about this two kingdoms (let's called them A and B) fighting a war, then the princess of kingdom A and the prince (or was it knight?) of kingdom B fell in love with each other, when they're not suppose to, duh. then a figter of kingdom A wanted to kill that prince (or knight), but accidentally killed the princess. then the prince (or knight) killed himself upon seeing his girl dead.. (so it's like tragic love story la) then the kings of both kingdoms decided to make peace.. blaaaaahblah. the ppl acting as the fighters were like wearing short skirts (Yes! even the guys! too bad i couldn't take a picture since my cam phone makes a sound, which cant be turned off) and cardboard armours and helmets with long spears. it was all too weird la. somemore they fought sooo lembek (soft in malay)!

then another one was by yio chu kang band. they had a small number of people playing the instruments and the rest acted. the skit was DANG DAMN FUNNY LAAARRR!! especially the 'main character' who acted as the prince. he's such a great actor. the skit was abt this prince who was still single and at last his mom and dad (the king and queen, duh) picked a number of girls. first was this rily quiet girl who doesn't say anything (lol), so she was rejected, then this very rough girl, very macho, who scares even the king (loll) then this girl who keeps swaying to and fro (she actaully escaped from a mental hospital and had no idea how she got to the 'palace' (lolll). and obviously all three of them- rejected!
then left this one girl who is perfect and all, so they decided tt she's ok. but when the ball came, and she danced with the prince, she lifted her arm, and evrything stank. yep, B.O. so the prince ends up marrying the macho girl. lollll.

so yup. but my favourite FAVOURITE performance was by ping yi sec. they won the best showmanship, and i can see why. they played sooo well and put up a greeeeeeeeeeeaaat show ah! somemore got a lot of cute guys. hahah! yep. cant forget their performance.

chiaos