i woke up at 6.30am and switched on my phone and had the shock of my life when i saw i recieved a message from moe. my reaction was like f**k! i was nOt ready! and they were 1 and a half hours early! but i held my breathe and opened it and straight away saw MERIDIAN JC. for like the first minute i felt quite disappointed just because i wasn't awarded with my first choice, but then after that i began to feel thankful coz i cannot imagine myself studying in tj. i think tj is like freaking boring, the open house sucked and the building's really small and old and the uniform's fugly.



then i began to find out that four of my friends got mj too and i got excited. at least i won't become a loner.

in the afternoon, i realised quite alot of other tkgians got mj too. feels weird to see the same faces again. i wanna make new friends.. ok, i can make friends with the guys. LOL.

now, i'm really thankful i got mj. really looking forward to join rock-climbing!! then my mom had to remind me abt ms sia, my band conductor. she WILL see me around sch and WILL try to force me to join band. no wayyy hosayyy....

btw, i went to nad's house with alia, ellai and syaf just now. will update more abt it soon.

Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder

And we'll run for our lives

I can hardly speak I understand

Why you can't raise your voice to say

~Run, Leona Lewis

ahhh.... i love that song.

WTF??!!!!! my plans for thw whOle day's cancelled because of my dad. whyyyy must he choose today to fall sick?? next week je lah. he didn't even let me go out for awhile only. hmmmmrrrfggghhhh!

i was really looking forward to meeting you girls, really. coz i missshh youuuu.. =(((((

hopefully i can go out tmr.

fingers crossed!

The Academy Is...'s William Beckett

damn, he's hot.

yaye! went out with nad and alia... i remember exactly one year ago we went out just the 3 of us to suntec.. had fun at swenson's and waiting for a certain someone to show up at 5 but never did.. we wanted to play bridge but needed another person and were like begging nadia on the phone to come. sorry nadia, didn't know you were having such a bad day. blame nad, she forced me to call you.

we went around tm looking for presents for fifah, tas and lxq.. after that went to watsons to look at the hair curlers. the fairprice trip was the most hilarious. nad bought fruits for her picnic tmr and i went to the bananas section to pick my fav type of bananas for her and alia came and exclaimed: "Damn, those are long!" and i immediately said: "I know, and THICK!"

so sick can? we started cracking up after that. it's true that i love that type of bananas coz they're long and thick but i NEVER thought of it that way...

PONYO! hahah i love that movie!!! it's sooo cute. it's a jap anime btw, ponyo on the cliff by the sea. went to watch it at vivo with fad, kak isyah and kak nana. wanted watch changling, but kak isyah couldn't be earlier. hmph. but i really enjoyed ponyo. it's sooooooooooo sute seriously. can't stop singing the theme song.

so next was ben&jerry's. we order the expensive ones coz can get them for cheaper since kak nana's friend nurul works there. get this, we only paid one fifth of the bill. the bill's about $50, but we only paid $12+. hahah so lucky..

we ate outside and took loads of pics till 10pm!

BOWLINGGGG!

at last i got to bowl! haha. went out with six other angels and bowled at e!hub. it was sharifah and syaf's first time. the last time i bowled was maybe 3 or 4 years ago, so i was kinda nervous too.

first game sucked for me. i was beginning to feel frustrated and it started to get boring. nart was on fire!

then 2nd game, i dunno what happened, but i started to play better! nart even accused me of pretending to suck during the first game just to show off in the next. LOL. oh, fifah and hannah maintained ahh. both were damn good and had few strikes. hannah had 3 in total, can't rmb how many fifah had. so ya, i enjoyed the 2nd game more. haha.

next we went to mcd to hang out before the hei sushi buffet started. ok, i didn't really like the hei sushi part. what is it with the restaurant being freaking silent even with customers? we were like the only ones making noise, if not it was just silence. i didn't like the formal-like atmosphere, and the staff there were soo strict. nart didn't eat, so they reminded us that she wasn't allowed to eat a single thing. the staff really were at different corners of the place so they had their eye on us. nart did try to grab a bite or two once in a while. oh, and i think the computer thingy were you place your orders is useless. we had to call the waiter to place our order personally in the end. so annoying. some of the food was nice. i'm not a fan of japanese food, but i tried to sample a few types of sushi. then comes the udon.. haha funny part. everyone had a bowl coz it's complementary. it's freaking filling i tell you. everyone hated it. i didn't find it disgusting, just torturous to finish up since it's so filling.

the bill exceeded a hundred bucks. dammit ah. it's freaking ex and the food's not that great, so i'm never gonna be seen in there again.

after that we walked to mimi's house two bus stops away coz hannah and nart had to pray. we also watched jap movies on mimi's lappy. that was the day i got re-introduced into the korean and jap movies. i started to get addicted to wacthing the movies on mysoju after that. xP

i LOVEEEE talking on the phone. i really do. i feel like talking on the phone with someone now.. someone talk to me pls??!! haha.

yaye, i'm quite excited for next wk to begin: bowling and sushi on monday with girlfriends, movie outing on tuesday with the azam ppl, lunch with nad on wed, and class bbq on friday in commemeration of dear fifah, tas and lxq's birthday. shit i have to get three presents.


so today's sunday......... the day i have madrasah....... unexpectedly, i BUMPED into him..... hahahahahahahahaha.

lol.



i smiled and waved. he smiled back. we were soooo close. hahahahahahaha.

ok shuddup he has a girlfriend.

hey hey, you you!

i don't like your girlfriend!

no way no way

i think you need a new one!

haha i'm so evil.

ok i'm rily bored.

i think yellow looks nice on me. haha. i love wearing yellow now, especially my yellow selendang. before this i was all about red. now yellow. and black. yup-yellow and black.

shucks, did i look like a bee?

so anyway, i had zahra meeting at en-naeem yesterday. me and hannah are in the committee! heheh. so we went there at 7.30pm and waited at the conference room where alot of the madrasah ustazahs were there too. they were soo hyper chatting among themselves while hannah, zizi and i waited. there was another new one, hidayah. the meeting started late. lol

so we had an intro of each other first since we were new com memebers. hannah was first. the ustazahs and existing members wahhed and ooohed when she said she's from tkgs and going vjc etc. was so funny.

the meeting was productive. we brought up ideas for events for the whole year and we had quite a lot of laughs too coz the atmossphere was fun, not so serious. at last it ended at 10 and i found out hidayah's one of faizah's bf. smalllll worrrld.

seriously, i wanna kick something.


can i kick you? or step on your feet. hard.

what rubbish.


what rubbish what rubbish.




i wanna kick something.

Oh it tears me up

I try to hold on, but it hurts too much

I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

...

Oh what are we doing

We are turning into dust

Playing house in the ruins of us

...

You can't play on broken strings

You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel

I cant tell you something that ain't real

...

Let me hold you for the last time

It's the last chance to feel again

~Broken Strings, James Morrison

ok fine, i shall blog about D-Day. well, i got 9 after bonus pts, and i was happy with it at all. when at first i saw the 2-digit number on my results slip, it hit me hard in the gut. then the tears started flowing. i wasn't crying coz i regret not putting more effort. damn, i did my best, i studied ok. i was crying coz of the realisation that i could not enter vjc- my ever dream school. my juniors syiq and jia xin and senior laura were there. poor things they had to witness me cry my heart out. syiq was sweet when she said that my l1r5 was fantastic (even tho it wasn't to me) and jia xin sat beside me the longest after syiq and laura left. so sweet, love you darlings.

then me, sharifah, mimi and nad just sat around in a circle in silence. not because we ALL did badly. damn, all of them got very low. i think it was my fault la, i didn't have the mood to talk at all, with red eyes and all. sorry guys, but congrats. =)

after that we had 2nd lunch at LJS at bedok which was when i cheered up. totally got over the sadness. well, i'm that sort of person who gets over things quickly, coz i knoow i CAN'T do anything to change the way some things are. i accept my fate, coz i know God has a different plan for me.

then the next day, i was TOTALLY confused on which jc to choose. it was between tjc, mjc, nyjc and sajc. so i went to tjc open house to see how the school is. the academic part of the sch is impressive and i can get opportunities there, but damn, the atmosphere was sooooooooooo boring! but i did get to rock-climb there! hehe!

then on wed, yesterday, i made up my mind- tj sci, mj sci, sajc sci, etc. coz if i don't get tj, i'll get mj, which i don't mind getting. and getting tj is also not bad since it's a good school. so everything's ok. my last two choices were psychology course in np and tp. =D

yesterday, i ripped my vjc poster (which was used as a motivation for me to study and work towards) off the wall and crushed it and threw it in the wastepaper basket. good riddance. ok, not exactly. it was a very sad moment for me.

now, i'm just anticipating for the posting results and wanting to go out with my girlfriends. planned a bowling outing, but cancelled. tsk.

and i just found out that mimi, serene, kim and sharifah all chose tj as first choice. yaye! got friends.

ok, exactly 12 hours and 15 min to go.. i'm scared shit,can't imagine holding the slip in my hands.

hmmm.. i feel a lil sleepy, i think i'll try to sllep after all. no point thinking abt it too much.

good luck everyone.

I WANT TO WATCH THE TING TINGS! BUT MY DAD WON'T LET ME!! wahhhh laooooo.... and can't greet them at airport some more coz monday's D' day!! hmmmmrfgghhhh...

Paparazzi- Lady Gaga

We are the crowd
We're cuh-coming out

Got my flash on it's true

Need that picture of you

It's so magical

We'd be so fantastic, oh

Leather and jeansyour watch glamorous

Not sure what it means

But this photo of usIt don't have a price

Ready for those flashing lights

'Cause you know that baby I-

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-Paparazzi

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that I'll be your-

Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind

But I won't stop until

that boy is mine

Baby you'll be famous

Chase you down until you love me

Papa-Paparazzi

I'll be your girl backstage at your show

Velvet ropes and guitars

Yeah cause you know I'm

starting between the sets

Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt, yellow

dance and return

My lashes are dry- But

the teardrops I cry

It don't have a

you is Cherry Pie

'Cause you know that baby I

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-Paparazzi

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that I'll be your

Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind

But I won't stop until

that boy is mine

Baby you'll be famous

Chase you down until you love me

Papa-paparazzi

Real good, We're dancing in the studio

Stop-stopped, That shit on the radio

Don't stop, for anyone

We'll Blast it

but we'll still have fun

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-Paparazzi

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that I'll be your

Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind

But I won't stop until

that boy is mine

Baby you'll be famous

Chase you down until you love me

Papa-paparazzi

initial plan was to go nyp then go far east plaza, then HANNAH insisted to go to another poly, so we decided to go np first then nyp. but instead of np we went sp. lol i plans change evrytime, never fixed.

the atmosphere at sp was quite great, music blaring and people everywhere, but i noticed that most of the ppl there were GUYS. like 60%? we went in the engineering course part and realised we were the only girls (besides a few more) there and we quickly rushed out coz it felt REALLY weird. we walked around (trying to find the goodie bag booth) and got some cotton candy (which made me sick a lil bit), took some pictures, watched some roller-bladers and skateboarders fall and left. we wanted to catch taufik at 2pm at nyp!

we reached nyp abt an hour later in the mrt and i saw fai who was right in front of me. tere were quite alot of ppl there but there was no sign of taufik anywhere even though it was already 2pm! haha so i actually went to ask one of the student in charge.

me: hi, excuse me. may i know where is taufik performing?

her: [puzzled face] huh what? erm i dunno.

and she gives me this look like i'm crazy. so at first i tot i got the wrong poly, but then i rmb i saw the poster online! and true enough, he WAS supposed to perform, just behind scheduled. stupid nyp student.

besides taufik, there were also other performances at the centre stage like karate, some chinese drum thing, dikir barat (both male and female groups), modern dance and hip hop dance (!). omg the hip hop dance was SOOOOOOOOOOOO cool! they were damn good and their group is sooo big. i really enjoyed it.

but anw, before that hannah went to solat first and this malay student (who was damnnn nice) brought us to where she can do that. we were brought all the way to the health science block, and on te way to the soat place was where all the cca rooms are. the dikir barat grps, modern dance and hip hop dancers were there (this was before their performances) rehearsing and we got to see them! haha so lucky.

then we cam-whored beside the (huge) pond. funny moments.

there were also rows of shops (at the business block of course). all the entrepreneurs were the students and it was quite interesting.

yup we had so much fun that we forgot to look for the goodie bag booth! haha. nyp open house the best so far.

OMG 12 JAN!!!!????

haha i aredi knew before. but i'm not panicking so much now.

went to rp open house today. quite nice la. got my hand henna-painted (though quite ugly, it looks like a strawberry) and i got to be a chinese, syaf a korean and fifah an egyptian and took photos, saw the courses, CAMWHORE (like crazy) at a secluded spot somewhere in the school. and i also ate my very first ben&jerrys. hehe.

oh man, my pet society coins below 1 mill already! hmpgrrmphhh. i million looked sooo nice.

i bet fifah's bro's in her house right now, since she's not online. haha

ok, i'm bored. i'm really worried about my friend now who's like caught in a mess now. trying to help her. hope everything'll be alright.