oh shit. i'm having a major headache. shit. i can't study properly!!!!!!!

my dad wanted to bring us out yesterday. i initially refused. wanna study. but then i would have been alone at home, and what the hell was i suppose to eat when breaking fast?

so i followed. we planned to go johor, but there was major traffic jam at 1st and 2nd link, so we went to break fast at jurong point's banquet instead.

then we went to the bazaar at geylang. it was damn crowded! i was sweating profusely. people are just walking past and looking, not exactly buying.

we visited cik yah's shop at joo chiat complex next. i was so tired i sort of collapsed on kak isyah (who is working there during her school holidays). mak mah was there too.

sha sha was so 'kecoh'! she and my mom are so funny when they joke with each other.

so we went home at around 1am and reached at 2am. so tired.

omg YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS.



THX ATIFA FOR TELLING ME ABT IT.

ever since atifa told me she watched this youtube video of muslim converts , i got interested about finding out about them. since 6am just now i have been watching videos on muslim converts on youtube. and there are ALOT of negative and repulsively insulting remarks coming from non-muslims from America commenting on the videos. majority of these people are american christians. they used vulgur and accused prophet muhammad of having raped women! it is utmost uncivil and repulsive! they said islam is a CULT! CULT!! i am soo angry. they should be more aware of what they are saying. it is as though muslims are those radical ones only!

i don't believe in terrorism, but i think those terrorists did what they did not for islam, but revenge on america. well, they started everything right? the afghanistan, iraq. is all because of resources? oil? i am not sure. but i am sure terrorists are only using religion as an excuse, when there is actually something very wrong with themselves.

i am very glad i live in singapore where majority have equal thinking. in america, most of them would be intimidated or leer at muslim women wearing hijab (headscarf) so they are some who feel insecure about wearing it. on the other hand, in singapore, some muslim women purposely refuse to wear them fashion-wise when we are fortunate that in singapore society, we are accepted even when we wear hijab. i urge you to see these videos.







and this is really cool.
a scientist who converted to islam.



and i just love this video. it's so funny.








to non-muslims, please don't get offended. i am not insulting any religion. just stating my views on the videos i watched.
and i hope those insensitive americans will stop being rude and please have a more open mind to what is happening ALL around them, not only judge from what they hear. the world does not revolve around you, like you think it is. if you are not one of them, then i salute you, and i'm not referring to you.

i don't have a boyfriend la. saiful hidayat is just the previous owner of my geography TYS book. i don't even know him. lols

this week i sat for my end-of-year chemistry, hml paper 1, amaths, core geography, biology and literature elec papers. JUST THREE MORE TO GO!! =DD

chemistry was CRAZY, RIDICULOUSLY DIFFICULT. serious! even the mcq. i took quite a long time getting through it. damn even the clever peeps said they're screwed. oh gosh.

hml paper 1 was chicken. i've always loved writing malay essays. =D

amaths was quite easy. yay. i studied what..

geog was quite crazy.. i didn't memorise certain details that were required.

bio was easy. hehe i studied.

i only spent less than an hour studying lit.. was concentrating on bio... soo, ya lit was quite crappy. i wrote shit.


btw, i watched final destination 3 on HBO yesterday. it's so cool. all the deaths somehow related.. no plot, but quite scary.

can't stop thinking about it, especially the part those two bimbos trapped in a tanning machine and died slowly. the temperature was increasing. can you imagine? it's like being trapped in an oven! crazy.

and i was on air again yesterday. =D on 98.7 this time. dedicated a song to my friends in tkgs. hmm, i don't think anyone heard that. xP

end of year exams have already started. sat for english and social studies paper. english was easy, ss seq was chicken, sbq was duck.


sbq was so diff! i did the seq first and was smiling from ear to ear, then sbq, i felt like crying. and i didn't have enough time. sbq answers were crap.

i stomach rumbled just now.

hmm, actually, i'm kinda enjoying fasting on this holy month of Ramadhan.

i was on air on power98 yesterday! hee won some contest. the prize is a 150-dollar worth of goodie bag or picnic basket filled with food and drinks packed by F&N and some hotel. the contest has got something to do with a 'be healthy' campaign and stuff. i do not wish to elaborate. quite embarrasing. my voice sounded like chipmunk!!!

i came to school today. shocked a few of my friends with my bloodshot eyes. i dunno why i didn't bring shades. i could have worn it to reduce possibilty of spreading. tsk i look horrible. my eyebag on my left eye is thicker than on the right. can u imagine? ugh.

then during assembly at courtyard, my FM mrs loy walked past me and saw my eyes. she backed away and exclaimed "aiyo! your eyes! why are you here? go home!" no way i was going home. can't afford to miss anymore lessons. esspecially chem, cuz mrs chan started on a new chapter, energy changes. during today's chem lesson i totally did not know what they all were talking about. was struggling to understand. but with darling serene's help, i caught up and find the chapter fun. =D

in school today my eyes feel like they were on fire. was more painful than when i am at home. maybe it's because i move around so much outside.

wanna say thanks to my friends for your good wishes for my well-being. =DDDDD

i went polyclinic just now. the doctor was very nice, and the lady at the pharmacy counter was nice too. i got a three-day mc! woohoo!

sigh, but i think i'll be coming to scool tmr. i want my progress repot. and can't afford to miss anymore lessons.

mrs andre's absent today. cool, that means i haven't missed csp lesson.

my eldest sister suddenly had bloodshot eyes aka sore eyes on monday, then two days ago, my second sis caught it.

THEN YESTERDAY, I CAUGHT IT! great ah..! now i look like some alien. and it's sooooooooo painful! i'm going polyclinic at sengkang later, meeting my sis there. yep, i didn't come to school. that means i missed amaths, chem and csp lessons! sooo important! somemore yesterday i have edited my english essay for today's lesson-sigh, so wasted.

seriously, it's sooo painful. it keeps watering.
hope i'll be better tmr.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY LEER AND SYAMIMI!!

heee. i bought them both presents. now you'll have to give me presents on my birthday next year. xP

haha jk.

tsk tsk. i pity vanessa hudgens for having her nude self all over the world. it' so embarrassing! the wole world can see her privates. not so private, now huh?

i just can't find the perfect blogskin to meet my taste.

watched the movie 13 going on 30 on HBO yesterday. very nice! love the part when the guy best friend is sooo nice to jenna. he's quite cute too. =D

i just love movies which shows the childhood and adulthood of the characters.
so cool.

went to oln to meet up with old friends and cikgu! =DDD

but before that, she was sooo busy talking to students, that i had to wait for almost more than an hour to get a chance to talk to her. and i found out that she's MT HOD!!! omg i'm so proud of you cikgu! congrats! love you!

i missed cikgu hani soooo much la... so happy to see her. =D i'm going out with her and cikgu laili on thursday! yay! =DD

hey cas! =D

my lovely friends.

to ciku hani, muah!

muah muah!

gezillion muahs!

WOOHOO. teachers' day was a blast! =DDDDD

except the aces workout. so stupid. the guy was like just teaching us the steps which we already know. we were dancing so slowly and repeating so many times. didn't even do some steps that we learnt before today. i thought that he was sort of insulting our intelligence. hurhur. maybe they treated the whole thing as a daily workout, not preparation for school mass dancing. hmph.

after workout we went to class. sec3 had to decorate bags to be given to the form teachers. in my group included me, sharifah, syafiqah, serene, dailing, gina, agnes and anisha. we had so much fun doing it. serene was the most focused on decorating it. and at last it turned out pretty.

oh ya, mr zain brought his daughter!!!! SOOO DAMN CUTE LAHH! i forgot what's her name. she has quite brown hair ahh.. i think mr zain's wife's pretty.

during the concert we had the dance club performing (very nice, very nice), and some classes putting up shows for their fellow teachers. i liked 3e9's one. very cute.

here are snapshots!

funny, gina.

pretty la, sha.

fake starfish.


pretty la, us. =DD

serene at work.

gina! tsk tsk.

tessa too?! triple tsk.

heee... mr zain's daughter. SUPER CUTE!

syaf and mua!

hey, tess, shoo.

mimi and mua!

those peeps.

that's tas standing, with leafling! =D

aggie and mua!

stars on me.

stars on us.

haha work it, gina!

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

teachers' day is tmr, but my higher malay class bought a teacher's day cake for cikgu zain and we sort of celebrated today! =D

it was quite funny coz cikgu zain did not expect it at all, and he had prepared something for us to do, but at last, the only thing we did was eat cake and him telling us riddles.

hannah bought the cake from royal's. it's chocolate and damnnn delicious. the strawberries on the cake was surprisingly VERY sweet! so sad sha was absent.. =(( and farah was fasting ah.. poor thing. i almost wanted to fast today, coz i didn.t know we were giving the cake today. tot tmr..

so cikgu zain cut the cake in 25 equal pieces. since the cake's square, it should be cut 5 by 5 right? cikgu zain's hilarious. he SERIOUSLY concentrated on cutting it perfectly- measured it and stuff. took almost 15 minutes! haha damn long ah. the peeps taking his pic while cutting the cake were like, asking him to look up, but he was like, "don't disturb me, i want to cut this cake." haha! he's so selenger cute.

cake. yum yum!

singing happy teachers' day song in malay for cikgu dearest.

taking pics of cikgu zain painstakingly cutting the cake.

cake finally cut.

higher malay class together (without sha =(( )

the indonesian girls.

that's my face in the light. =D

this pic is all abt trying to imitate the afifah-look, but to no avail.

credits:

pictures- SYAFiqah. =DDDD thx! muah.

and now we owe hannah $2.50 each.

sometimes i winder if there's something wrong with me. do i look weird to you? do i look like i have weirditis?

ugh, drop it la. crazy girl.

all of us will make at least one stupid mistake in our lives. all of us tend to regret half our actions. that's the way life is, isn't it?

but what if you make someone cry because you've betrayed her for your own good? what if you did not realise what you were doing?

it's so heartbreaking seeing you cry because of our selfishness. we're sorry, i'm sorry. it's not just your fault or just our fault. it's all of us. the image of you crying is stuck in my head, never going to go away. i hate making my friends cry. i hope we can resolve our friendship while also be serious at times, you know what i mean.

i'll never make another person cry ever again.